my thoughts on everything, most days, mostly about cars

I had another bad dream about her.

 

Ive been doing so well; I havent talken to her in a week. I miss her so much that Im having physical pains in my chest.

 

I am such a fucking pussy. I hate my fucking self. Im at an all time low. 5 in the morning and Im awake.

 

She gave a box of my stuff to my dad and stepmom to give to me. Does she realize how much that hurts?

 

Why cant I stay over this for more than a goddamn week? This is so fucking fustrating.

 

I want to give her time to feel better about me. I can give her all of the time in the world if she will give me the rest of the time in her life.